FML

I WANT A MOTHER FUCKEN CAR!!!! IM SCREAMING OF BOREDOM WHILE EVERYONE'S OUT HAVING A GOOD TIME!!!! FUUUCCCKKKKK! that's all i gotta say.

Had the best time last night! it actually made my day haha and now because of that im feeling pretty good now. I kinda feel like i just had one of those crazy nights and now just wanna rest in my house for a bit. But unfortunately i can't :/ . My friends want me to go to the mall but im thinking about ditching that cause i really see no point in going. Its weird cause i used to look foward to that, but now i feel myself changing, like im not being controlled, like i now have control over my life.And around 6 , i got invited to go to a sweet 16 thing, which i also REALLY don't wanna go to, but if i don't go, my 4 of my kinda closest friends are gonna be sooo fucken pissed at me, so i really have no choice :/. I really wish i could disappear off the face of the earth for just today. But im not gonna wear what they call "suits", but what i call monkey suits lol. So yea gonna probably skate for a bit, cause that's the only thing that helps get my mind off things and then draw for a bit.
I've also been having the most fucken strangest dreams EVER. Its been happening for weeks! now haha idk, i actually kinda like them, but i think i've been sleep talking alot and walking too!? while having this dreams cause i honestly think this dreams are real and then i get tricked.
P.S. im listening to killers! can't stop listening to them for some reason haha their too good!

OMG IM LAUGHING SO HARD RIGHT NOW! XD I have been inspired for the first time in my life, and never thought i would be inspired to do this, or ever do this, but i have been inspired to write lol still can't believe i am but i just feel something flowing inside me that i must write i guess hahaha and I am the luckiest 2 year old EVER! :D

hmmm just finished watching (500) days of summer and.....i kinda feel bad for the guy kinda towards the end, cause i used to feel the same way a while back, well i was kinda the same, so that kinda made me feel sad a bit. Now don't know what to do lol...........im gonna make the popcorn pop lol and i REALLY wanna draw something but don't know what to do hmmm....this is very frustrating >:(

im feeling really confused, i don't know if i should take the risk or not, don't know if she wants it X( butttttttttt im really enjoying my wet long hair right now hahaaha its so flingy and fun to play with hahaha and im pissed that 1 hw took 5 hours -_- but thank god im done. Now gonna do something idk hahaha

just finished eating, and am now gonna rest in my room for a bit and watch Nick and Norah's Infinite playlist, not gonna fall asleep this time though lol. im also wondering when im gonna be all healed up cause i really wanna skate normally again....but I AM HAPPY! :)

trying my best to get kurt cobain's hair detailed good, while listening to La Dispute! and gonna call jackie in a little bit(: