their's no one more beautiful in my eyes then youuuuuuuuuu!

HELPPPPPP MEEEEEEEE!!!!! I DON'T WANT TO FUCKING LIVE ANYMORE. SOMEONE SAVE MEE!!!!! I HATE THIS. I WANNNA DIEEE!!!!! PLEASEEE!!!!! :'( :'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'( TOO MUCH PAIN!!!!

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the world is going mad. everyone's being punished or tortured. everyone's miserable. like wtf is going on. i remember the good old days when none of us were being punished, tortured, and miserable. i hope they come back. I really really hope better days come after the worst days. cause even i have noticed that's how the cycle goes. after something bad their is always something good...and then something bad, and it just goes on. i just want better days for the one's i care about. maybe even a little. this are the dark ages to me. well im not sure about that. but a lot of struggle in the world. and i want everything to okay again with everyone.

If you gave me the opportunity to come with you to be together for the rest our lifes, i would come by and follow you all the way to the end.

and the memories that you and me share are still not enough. cause i know there more and better memories to come. and ill be waiting here for them to come.

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this has been the best/worst year of my life and i just want it to end and i want myself to stop overthinking things. i hate my lifeeee! lol

i wish time went faster

hw and then draw. then drums, and skating.

their is no hope anymore. happiness has left my body. i will never be happy again. i don't wanna talk to anyone in school tm if i go. i just wanna be my depressed self. nothing can cheer me up at this point. its not gonna happen. i wanna run away. i think i should. if i can't be happy. if i can't leave this world. i should just run away. this world is just full of let down's. and i can't take it anymore. their is no hope for me anymore :'( im too deep in the hole to get over you. you will never see my smile again..

kill me now world. kill me now. i really wanna leave this fucking life. fuck.fuck.fuck.fuck. i am not happy at all. i need to cry so much right now but i have to go to that fucken bitches house. fml :'( i don't know if im going to school tm

"I think our love can make us do anything we want to". i miss you jackie :'(

i wish i had my old reputation where everyone could trust me. now no one does.

nirvana

jackie sent me a song today and its the perfect song to describe how i feel and probably how she feels. we both miss each other really badly and are misearable. i don't know whose in the most pain though, me or her? :'( i really hope she can love like she wants to soon, cause i have changed and i am ready to go back (2 days can actually do a lot surprisingly). we're both crying at least once every day, we know that. today i cried while i was sleepy (i know wtf)i didn't wanna tell you cause i felt like you wouldn't believe me and you'd think its stupid. your saving me as the mins go by and i wanna save you now, i really hope i can help you through this. i wanna do w/e it takes for you to be happy again. i still love you..

depressed :'/

i've lost all the feelings i ever had. i don't even know how to feel anything anymore. everything seems dull and boring. nothing excites me. nothing interests me. im not like i used to be anymore. i've changed, and this has really changed me. i don't think anyone will even recognized me ever again. im too afraid of love now, even though i am in love right now, i just don't wanna be anymore. its really hard, even if it was love or wasn't. its just not easy to not love someone anymore. it just keeps hurting..i never wanna love again.

it will take more than a million years to get over you. The only home i have is being you, i wish you would remember the good times that we had, and come back.

fuck college, fuck school, fuck everything, wish i was never born, nothing is worth this much suffering

talked to ryan, made me feel better but also cry more, just hope she comes back to me more than anything in the world

"when was the last time you missed me, you loved me, you wanted me hold you..cause lately i've missed you telling me that"

im boring

i really wish i wasn't so boring, i've been trying for month's to try and not be boring, instead it has gotten worse, and its with everyone i know, this fucken sucks :/ im just the same old same old..

i think a lot..

idk if you think of it as good or bad but...i think i have fallen with you so much that like..i think about you almost 24/7!? i feel like thats too crazy haha and i thinking about you without me is i think now THE WORST THING THAT CAN HAPPEN TO ME EVER. like idk i just wanna be with you forever, sorry if its bad but thats how i feel. but i feel really bad that jackie has been stressed out with all this school work and has all this college stuff to deal with, i really wish i could help her out somehow, but really can't do anything :/ hope next week is better for her, or it gets better