:/ christmas doesn't feel like it used to anymore, i feel like i try to much to make it feel like it should. Today sucked. drawing/hw sucks. i hate everything today. im not suppose to feel this way, especially today, but for some reason i got really sad right after i got my gifts, i just felt bad for no reason at all. I want don't want tm to come, im going to try and just sleep it off. goodnight sleeping with a sad face and crying on christmas day. that is just wrong, and shouldn't happen

feeling disappointed :/

everybodies getting accepted to all this colleges except me :( i feel like im going to be the first one to be denied... :(((( im so scared i just wanna find out now

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I can't...i just can't. im done.

...what's going on? im going to disappear for the day and clear my head. try to learn not to care about things like this. lets see how it goes

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i just wanna cry but i can't get myself to let my emotions out. I just want to cry them out, why the fuck can't i!?

Today i felt like i didn't belong. thank god im alone tonight with no one in my room, i haven't felt like this in a while. i wanna hold back the tears for once. idk if i can. i pray tm goes better than today. goodnight.

i can't believe you IM'd me out of all people, ME. i always knew you would come back to talk to us or i guess me. i always had hope that i would end up talking to you once more. its good to hear from old friends again, or maybe for one last time..

i wish i could send this to you because this is so true :'(
“No, it’s not that. It’s not what you’re thinking. I was serious when I said ‘all of it’. I can remember every moment we were together, and in each of them there was something wonderful. I can’t really pick any one time that meant more than any other. The entire summer was perfect, the kind of summer everyone should have. How could I pick one moment over another? Poets often describe love as an emotion that we can’t control, one that overwhelms logic and common sense. That’s what it was like for me. I didn’t plan on falling in love with you, and I doubt if you planned on falling in love with me. But once we met, it was clear that neither of us could control what was happening to us. We fell in love, despite our differences, and once we did, something rare and beautiful was created. For me, love like that has happened only once, and that’s why every minute we spent together has been seared in my memory. I’ll never forget a single moment of it.”
—The Notebook by Nicholas Sparks

so many things going on, i don't know how im going to handle all of it. Im going to try to help my family out though a lot with this job. I hope this morning goes good. I've never tried this but i hope im doing the right thing for once.

im having one of those moments when you can't get that one special person off your mind. Your just thinking of all the happy moments you've shared with her. When your feeling neutral and you miss them incredibly. All Happy memories and thoughts. and i just know, most definitely know, that i will be happy to spend the rest of my life with you. that i want to, more than anything, that's all i want.

idk what to do. i say this 1000 times a day, everyday. i felt horrible last night/ this morning. been awake since 6 am. i think the worst thing that i heard you tell me, was that i couldn't make you happy. That destroyed me. Bc that made me think ill never have a chance with you in a million years. i think what gave me the horrible feeling yesterday, was the horrible things i said about her. I wish you told me i was the only one for you, but obv im not. i mean, thinking about it a lot. what chance do i have against those SVA guys. They're there and i am here. I have to face the fact that a lot of artsy people are hot. i should just shut the fuck up now. Deprived of happyness...

i really miss you. this might sound so dumb, but im watching THS on snookie, and something about this is just making me miss you so much, making me wish i was still your boyfriend. im feeling normal though, its a different feeling then usual. i hope this 3 weeks fly, i really want to spend time with you.

im so alone :(

no one ever considers my feelings with anything they do, say, or want. never. or they just don't consider them as much as i do. idk, i always consider everybodies feelings a lot of the time, even when im alone. it just really makes me sad, it really makes me feel more unimportant to life or anybody. i think if anybody ever considers my feelings for anything, it would be the nicest thing they could ever do for me, i guess you can say romantic too. This all makes me really fucking sad though, i hope i drown in that fucking river tm, everythings so fucking cruel to me. I hate fucking everything and everybody, they all make me angry and sad. i can't remember the last time i was happy for a really long time. i really do fucking hope i drown tm in this mother fucking river. sleeping in tears again ..

someone take me to a happy place :(

life sucks yep

This actually means a lot to me

I will find you, and will keep on looking for you, I will not give up. I will find the side that you are missing ( I mean that both ways). You are worth it, I think you are worth it, more than anything, i am sure of it. You are my roadtrip. You are the Roadtrip i want to take to find whatever it is we both are finding, and i will find it. I've never been so determined. I hope its not this song im playing while writing this called Six Days At The Bottom Of The Sea by Explosions In The Sky. As cliche as this sounds, people..well not only people but everything..everything around us tells us that we must always fight for what we love and care about most. If you don't, your giving up and that makes you a failure, and right there and then you live a life of depression and pain. Well i DON'T want that. I AM going to make it to the top and make it big for myself and live the life that i want to, with you. I don't know what it is about you that makes me feel this way or think like this, but i didn't fall in love with you just bc it was the right thing to do or bc you told me you loved me. NO, i fell in love with you bc i knew when i looked at you and was with you, that you were the person i would love to spend the rest of my life with, I loved you, and i not only loved the good things about you but also the bad things, I love who YOU are truly inside. I love..you. But for now, i know me and you have to do what we have to do for ourselves. This doesn't mean at all i am going to give up on you though, i am going to find that special something to replace that emptiness in our relationship. I said i gave it my all that last time you tried to break up with me, but im wrong, that is not my all, i will push myself for..something that i love the most...

i can't believe you're gone..My heart just dropped, as soon as i saw you leave my car, i looked back at you while driving for the last time. Ever since that moment when we both started crying, i haven't been able to stop. I had to come inside with sunglasses. This is not a completely sad moment, i am also so so SO, VERY proud of you for making this far and making your dreams come true. I hope we never stop needing each other, and always need each other bc deep down we both know we are soulmates. I don't mean to sounds cheezy saying that, but no better word describes what mean and you have. Im still going to be with you when you need me every step of the way for anything, any help that you need :) Hope you are enjoying your stay at SVA, and that the years to follow are AMAZING, ok well goodbye for now.

...SNAIL!

I feel like Tom Hanson from (500) days of summer, where he is tired of being depressed, still is, but decides to start trying for his art. I feel the same. I hope tm goes well. This is probably the last time i am going to say this. I love you, I hope NY meets with your expectations, and the nxt time we see each other, we both look fine hahaha goodnight.

i saw "crazy, stupid, love" today with jackie, and that was a very inspiring movie for me. Like right after that i stayed inspired for a really long time, like nothing could hurt me i just wanted to do what i did. it got me thinking a lot about everything. but now i am back to being sad, i really wish that feeling could have lasted..idk what to do. tm will be the last time i see you, i am absolutely speechless like idk what to say to you or do, or anything. i hope it feels different, and not like usual. i want it to be special tm. so far the only motto i got is to, stay alone and quiet/ depressed for this year. i don't want to get happy again, just to fucking get sad again. its just pointless. tm will be the last day of me acting, like nothings wrong. i don't think this year is going to give me surprises either. just going to stay sad and lonely. goodnight, i know ill be seeing you again soon, too many sad memories and thoughts coming my way, this is the only place to go for them.

feeling the same as last night. i guess you can't sleep everything off. im going to be staring at the storm all day and just thinking about everything..

i just finished talking to jackie on the phone. I really missed doing that a lot, but it just makes everything more sadder bc your leaving soon, i can't believe it :'(. I can't help the fact that im not perfect. why can't i just be like everybody else and not give a shit about everybody, be emotionless. im not perfect, i hate myself. i fucking hate crying. i just don't know why my feeling for you are so strong, like why do i love you so much, when you don't. or you do but only sometimes. I don't understand. Why do i even have feelings at all, they are just used to hurt me. I don't know what im going to do anymore, like after today, i just don't know..I wish i was the guy that you loved. His the luckiest guy in the world. To be able to have someone like you, he must be an idiot not to have you. i wish i looked like him and was like him. ugh its going to be a pain to tell my parents that me and jackie broke up, i wish i didn't have to, i hope they don't fucking panic and think im going to go nuts..

I hope my life ends soon. nobody really needs me. im just here to keep the empty darkness company. Im just going to try my best to help everybody around me, everybody i can help, and make them happy. I figure why try and try to make me happy and fail all the time, rather than try and try to make somebody else happy. I think im going to spend a lot of time with myself alone, in my backyard looking at the river, just thinking about my life and wondering..am i happy the way i've lived my life? I just hope one of this days my heart takes so many cuts from being sad that ill finally just die. I don't really care where i go, as long as im gone from here. Everyday my heart aches, and the pain is unbearable. I have no friends at school that i actually like. Im just going to sit somewhere alone every morning, where no one will bug me. after school is going to be lonely too. ehhh i just don't know anymore, this is just going to be a sad and lonely year. I think my whole life, all i've asked for was true love, no fling or hook up buddy etc, just real love. But right now or ever, i don't think im ever going to get that. I am so hear broken right now. Everything just hurts me all the time. i hope my heart just stops and i drop alone in my backyard.

you are the only one i love the most..its going to hurt the most to see you go real soon..i hope you miss me, bc i am going to miss you so very much. im going to figure out the train system to go to new york and visit you, if you'd let me, i hope you'll let me. im not going to ask you though, i just hope you somehow sense it and invite me to come to visit you whenever we both need each other. this first week of school isn't going to go well for me...i've given up all hope for me and only me :((((( its just not worth it anymore to try with your heart and fail with embarressment...im sad, i hope i get happy soon for the good reason's and it stay's like that for a really really long time. but i highly doubt that, happyness is never sure of :/

how did this happen..how did we go from being really happy...to really sad. . . :(

woke up feeling the same..just can't get this feeling away :| i want everything to be good again..

i won't get this off my mind. what happens a week from today i hope will not ruin me. im pretty angry right now. girls just piss me off in general. when we were little and said girls are evil i feel is true. when they are in a relationship, the guy never flirts with anybody or make it seem like it. Yet the girls always talk to other guys or do a little flirting with guys. being nice is not an excuse at all. if the guy is flirting with you, try to avoid it like the bf would do. girls just never consider there guys feelings ever, they think its alright bc nothing is happening. But you don't understand that it still hurts us a lot and makes us very jealous. how would girls feel if the guy did that with there gf's feelings. seriously. Give the same respect that you are given. I can't help it that i get jealous all the time, i try my best not to show it, but when it goes on for too long or too far, that's when you have to tell them wtf is going on. Seriously, i am NEVER going to date a girl like what i just said ever! Not all girls are the same, but a good most of them are. That makes it way more hard to ever find someone you can actually trust and like. Nobody i know is not like that except adrian's gf marisol. I truly think adrian is really lucky to have someone like her. Its almost impossible now a day's to find a girl like that. Unless they change, im not going to date anybody like that. Im going to be straight up with them. This is why im always going to be single. This is my problem. Im a fucking bitch. Maybe if i was emotionless and didn't give a fuck about anything, then i would be able to live with myself. but i am cursed with this BITCHASS feelings. I am so fucking angry right now. everybody pisses me the fuck off, i will never let anything go, nothing will ever change. I want to fucking punch every fucking bitch right now. i hate you all.. How about everybody stops being a bitch and be fucking simple. gn

im really boring with everyone, like im not entertaining when i talk with someone..maybe i should say yes to more things and i will actually have stories..or maybe im just boring and will never change..

do you ever daze and wonder where i am? what i am doing? i do, i always wonder that.




hope tonight or tm get better for me, help me.

:( i don't know where my mind is anymore, im completely lost. Like when you leave to SVA, what am i suppose to do?...how is everything suppose to be with us?...i think we both know the answer, but at the same time don't. i feel like that's the dead line for what we are doing. idk, i guess i just have to prepare myself for what's coming up ahead for me. i wish someone was here for me. I can't make it through this alone. It seems like the bad things in life are hitting my family hard. First it was Juan, then a week later me, and lastly 2 weeks later..adrian. We are all very sad at this moment. All of us don't know what we are doing or how to deal with this. Knowing that this is happening to adrian and juan too is actually making me even more sad now. seeing adrian yesterday panic made me see myself when jackie first really broke up with me. i think he was worse though bc they were together for a long time, longer than me and jackie double'd. None of us can escape the memories . The memories that really meant a lot to us and that we really put our true feelings in thinking we would never get hurt bc she was so perfect for you, it just seemed impossible. That's why it hurts so much, we lost more than you, we lost the most important part of ourselve's with you. I don't know what im doing anymore, like wtf is going to happen after you leave?!

Im feeling so sad right now, more than usual like different, but hurts more. Everything that i wanna say or want to say, is always the wrong thing to say with you. It all makes me sad. My feelings for you over power anything in me. Its been like more than 2 weeks since we broke up, and i...i just can't stop thinking about you, everything around me reminds me of you, Everyday since we started dating.

I just want to be happy :(((( i really really really, don't know how much more clearly i can be to say that im completely sad without you. i need somebody, i need something, i need anything to get me back to that happy land where everything felt right...everything felt great, amazing...where sadness seemed impossible to find in this world. Its funny how everything is the opposite now, everything feels wrong...everything feels worse, horrible...where HAPPYNESS seems impossible to find in this world. im in the bottom of the pit, im sorry for everything guys, i have failed you all, i have dissappointed you all. Im not like any of you. I don't belong here, i never did.

..Im now going to cry for the rest of the night while listening to my sad music, good night lucky people, you guys are truly blessed.

"Yea i don't understand how couple's can break up, it seems impossible like i don't get it"...Welp, now you know..

ugh, im so sad.

My Future

i wish you and me could last on forever, but i know that's not going to happen though. I give up to be honest, i honestly give up on trying to be with you, you have put it on my face telling me, me and you can never last. So I'm done. You'll probably meet a boy who you truly love in college in no time, im happy for you. starting right now i give up. I know im going to run into doubts and probably come back to my blog again to say how much i miss you and want you, but that's i guess normal for me. I don't know what im going to do without you, but i know its all for the best. " Go after the one's you love", im not the one you love. I get the feeling there is somebody else you love. it hurts to know, but i have to learn to not care and move on with my life. Our relationship made me a better man, thank you for that. I now know what i really want and what to look out for if i ever do date again. For whoever comes along my way, i just wanna say, all im looking for is happyness and simple that lasts. im sad right now, i have been for a while, bc i always thought i wasn't good enough for you and that you were going to leave me. i guess being alone, it won't bring me that. I remember before we were together how i REALLY wanted a relationship and i didn't care with who it was, i just thought i would be the perfect boyfriend for whoever it is. but now that its over, i don't know why i ever asked for such a thing, i don't want to be in a relationship anymore, i feel like its the worst thing i can do again. I learned my lesson. i don't think ill make anybody happy who im with so why bother going through the same thing again, i don't want to go through this again, i just don't want this problems to come back to haunt me again. Staying single seems like the best thing to do for my whole life, or at least until im old and everybody old wants to be really be with somebody for the rest of there life's haha. All this problems, i caused myself, well most of them, and it was bc i was in a relationship. So why would i ever want to work my way back to me ruining the relationship i wanted. Makes no sense. I think im going to become one of those artist that do everything alone, and are sad for the rest of there live's. seems calming i guess you can say. Maybe for once i will be right, and everything will be as i said. I don't know if im going to come back, i hope i don't though, i hope i disappear to be honest. Here's a toast to everything and my future, goodnight.

i want an escape, i don't want to deal with my feeling anymore. fuck you college! i know your not coming back weekend's like you said you were. i fucking hate everything right now. i want everything back to being simple, why isn't anything for me ever fucking simple! fuck everything, im going to bed AFUCKINGAIN

can't believe i got a lot done in my drawing actually in only 3 hours or so. welp, its 3 am and i can't wait to wake up and shower, ill finish the hair to my drawing tm morning then on to face #2. Let good things come to me please! i hope your right, i really do!

only people i wish i could always be friends with, Ryan, Marc, Sam F, and of course you know who else.

I used to look WAY better back then, then i do now, wow Ugly for Life.

I have no one to talk about my problems that i like. I hate everybody. i just have my music, listening to my emo songs, bc they make me feel like they understand and keep me calm. I sound crazy. Im going to get a little book, and from now on as soon as i get it, im going to write all my personal thoughts in that book, all the pain that i suffer threw everyday in that book, only while listening to music ill do this. i figure it'll keep me calm. and when i die, everybody somebody will find that book and hopefully see what i see and understand the pain i felt, and how there is no escape to where i am at right now. hopefully my life will return to normal one day, i doubt it will. i miss my cousins and juan. wish they were back. going to be sad for the rest of the night and draw. i pray that my problems go away tm.

show me i mean something to you, bc you mean the world to me and wish you could see that.

i wish i never existed, life is so complicated i hate it :(

I miss you :/ I hope you miss me too, i hope i don't change things, i just want things to stay the way they are, pls don't respond with a " lol ". i really hope your love for me hasn't faded. i wish i knew if the thing i txted you were the right things ugh. i don't even get myself anymore. im freaking losing it. i wish we could stay together and keep it a secret and NOT announce it on fb, i just wanna keep this relationship a secret between you and me.

someone help me :( i can't deal with myself anymore. i hate my life :(

sad :/ i just wish everything could be right again..

i feel like all this memories don't mean as much as they do to me. I really hope all those memories me and you made weren't for nothing. They mean so much to me, those memories really were me and my happiest moments, i hope you don't let that go, if you let that go, you let me as in my inner self lose hope (as in me). i can't stop thinking about all this memories we made, and it hurts to think that this memories are just going to be gone forever....

.....i hope you know i cannot stop thinking about you everyday, pls be mine and only mine, bc i finally know what i want in life, the only thing i want in life to keep forever, and that's you Jackie..

-sigh- i hope tomorrow goes well....i beg for it to go well, i feel like i screwed everything up, i hope i didn't...pls pls pls let tm be my day

i am absolutely speechless, i cannot believe what just happened right now. she said "i love you" to me...
she actually loves me and is happy, idk what is going to happen from now on between me and her, but i think what im going to do is just do what i am doing and see where it goes from there, still always be there for the one i truly love and keep on supporting her no matter what.

i hope you don't regret what you told me too, if you want to be independent right now im fine with that, i just want to be the one for you always and want you to know that without conflict. what you told me made me so happy, thank you so much, you mean the world to me and am most happy that you are happy with me :) goodnight

wish we still had something, me and you :/


you don't find me attractive anymore, you don't like my personality anymore (or never did), i bet you wouldn't miss me either..wish i was who you loved, seems like everyday its not worth it to be me.

i wish you still thought about me..

again, hot people get w/e / whoever they want. Ugly people, just get shitted on (me and marc came up with that).

i feel so empty, and am so alone right now. why do i miss you so much more and more everyday. i just want to be with you forever, you were the girl of my dreams. the girl i SERIOUSLY thought i was going to end up being with for the rest of my life. you are the only one that makes me smile but now, i feel as though you are leaving forever and i will never see or talk to you again. i love you too much to let you go that easily. i can't even pretend anymore, im trying so hard. i think you noticed it today when we were at forever 21 and you asked me if i was okay, of course i had to lie and said yes, im sorry about that. im not okay, i want you back so desperate, i want to be with you forever, i want you to be the one im meant to spend the rest of my life with happily. saying all this really makes me so sad and empty, i feel meaningless. i hate crying bc i don't feel like a man when i do. i pray every night to whose ever listening to pls see that im the one for you and to pls (i know this sounds wrong) love me like i love you, bc i love you very very much, and i really cannot see my future without you, i really can't. i hope you never read this bc i know you'll get really pissed at me, and stop talking to me. i just want this feeling to go away already, i know you don't love me, and its destroying me on the inside knowing that....so why do i love somebody who doesn't love me...idk, i just do.


*cross my fingers * pls change my life and make me happy again, PLEASE! i can't handle another one of this summers/ years, i just want to be with somebody that loves me as much as i love them, and i know that somebody is you...

ugh im just talking crap...i should just shut up, and be unhappy for the rest of my life, alone..goodbye, i am angry and sad. im just..going to walk..miserable.

someone pls help me, im all alone and crying. i just want someone who loves me like i love them :[


i really hope ryan still wants to hang out, i bet he doesn't..

im so sad right now, i just want someone to love me and hold me, i feel like ill never have that bc life has to be a complicated bitch. i know im going to get hurt as soon as you leave to college. im no longer going to have you, or someone to hold...im lost and crushed. you seem fine now like you don't need me anymore, i hate myself and my life, fuck everything! ! ! !

i hope you learn to love me..
bc i love you very much...
and i hope that love lasts forever like my love for you....




something terrible is going to happen soon and i know it, its going to hurt me so bad, and im really scared to be honest

i feel like i am never going to be the perfect boyfriend to anybody, like the only people that last in a relationship are the assholes somehow. either this world is fucked up, or its just me. i think its both. i wish i could hide my emotions from you but for some reason i can't, and this is only bringing me down..

i had a dream last night that i met somebody new, a skinny girl with long hair, that's all i know, the weird thing is, in one night she appeared in 2 of 3 of my dreams. Sign? idk what to think of it bc for some reason everything was dark in that dream like evil. i wish i was emotionless so that way i wouldn't care about anything and i'd be fine, but im still not, im just not happy without you. its wrong to say that bc you were unhappy when you were with me. idk what to do, at all. things would have been left better off if i was just never here, ever. there is no reason why im here, ill always be alone. ill never have anybody bc ill just make them unhappy. if i was never here, you would most likely be happy with somebody else that you truly love most, with no sadness, nothing bothering you, nothing. He would have kept the sadness away unlike me. As far as i see, im just in the way for everything * regrets being here forever

i don't like to cause pain or sadness to someone that i truly love, and i don't like to be in pain either. i prefer to be the one to leave and not deal with anything ever again. cause life is just too complicated for me and confusing, i just give up, and never wished for this.

im always scared at night, but not bc of the horror movie i saw :/

wow, today is actually going...pretty well, its all thanks to you. i really missed you and you came here, thank you.

i will never have you......i am crying so much, its uncontrollable, i can't breath at all, my heart is pounding on my chest so hard, breathing heavily and fast. I can't stop the crying, i just want you back, i just want us to be together forever. i wish tm you come here to hold me and tell me that you love me dearly, but that would never happen...and that makes everything hurt more...i feel like im dieing.

going to try to sleep, hopefully never wake up again ever ever ever ever EVER in my whole life time..i hate fucking life and i hate everything.

this pain has become too real that now my heart is starting to hurt a lot

i don't wanna feel like this anymore, i hate it so much, im in so much pain right now, i don't want it anymore, it hurts too much. Please just go away i don't want to feel like this ever in my life, this is like the worst nightmare, and the horrible part is that its real. I want to stop crying. i just want someone to cry on right now so badly, i can't handle this at all. PLS TAKE THE PAIN AWAY! My heart can't handle this, im going to be alone forever. i can't make anybody happy....i want everything back the way it used to be. i wish i was never born. i REALLY didn't want to say that but no words can describe how i feel right now but that. everything hurts

I can't help but to still strongly be in love with you. I don't want to be in love, it hurts. why do i love you so much...it hurts. it hurts when you can't get what you love the most. it hurts more than anything life can throw at you, i mean that. Life sucks so bad. why am i so convinced that there no doubt about it good in you, and even though you said you didn't love or that it wasn't there, i still am convinced idk why, that its there. maybe i just need to wait. You know what the truth is, Ugly People don't get what they want, they never do, why am i ugly. Broken for Life.

too much to handle....i just wanna leave now, now and forever..pls someone just make it all go away.

its too late for me, i am just a memory now.

happy anniversary...

im so sad right now, i don't think i can take this. its all my fault though

honestly, i just want someone to hold forever..

ughhh this day just keeps on getting depressive with nothing to do. I. DON'T. WANT. TO. FEEL. THIS. ANYMORE!!!!

my teacher LOVED my rough draft drawing, she liked where it was going. I guess she didn't picture it like i did too, bc she said she thought it would be different but she still likes it veryvery much. only thing she saw bad was where my ears were placed, but that was it. I def think no doubt about it im gonna do a good job with this and its def going to stand out, out of everybody else's YES!

it was still depressing though, on the ride there and back from school. My teacher asked me how you were and what you've been up to, and i didn't want to tell her that we broke up bc i didn't what would happen if i did, what i would've done.. but somehow, i think she knew.

why..

can't sleep, too much on my mind. i think im feeling a little depressed too. wow, tm is going to suck i can already tell, -sigh-

just finished my rough draft drawing for my project, hopefully my teacher and my fellow classmates will like it, and hopefully tm will be a better day. goodnight.

im sad, idk what to do. pls pls pls god or anybody out there, make tm infinity x's better than today, i just want happiness. i don't want to deal with this sadness, i just want something to make me happy. im afraid ill never find it. on another note, well it looks like your doing really good without me, and im glad that you are doing great, and obviously your great future seems more assuring. I hope one day, when we are 44 (hopefully earlier) we meet each other again, and instantly see what we've been missing in life and get married and have a family. saying that makes me feel so dumb, i bet if anybody read this they would def be like wtf is wrong with this kid. well your right, im just "wtf". i keep on feeling like i wanna bang my head on the wall hoping all my problems and emotions go away. but its useless. i think i know what to do...im leaving. im leaving everybody, im just gonna isolate myself and make new friends/ a new life. ahhhhhhhh so many thoughts!! its just frustrating me!! i wanna wake up with everything being fine! GOOD FUCKING BYE!

to soon to come, but ill just become a memory

so heartbroken, idk what to do from now on.

will i ever find love or w/e i had with you again? will i ever be happy again? i see that you don't actually see a future with us, and probably are trying your best for me to see that, helping me move on. Maybe your right..maybe i should move on, and give up on my emotions, give up on everything i believe in. i hope meineke is right and we will meet again, but with your response, i see you don't want to believe that. i can only hope...again.

today sucked. nothing about it made me happy, all i do and will probably ever do from now on is wait for a txt from you, to at least say hello, or how are you. i hope your still thinking about me and that you are positive about this. i hope i did the right thing...i hope we end up together in the end.

i wish i knew if you miss me as much as i miss you. i wish i knew when you miss me. geez idk what to do, im having mixed thoughts about everything, can't do anything, i just want things back with you already, but i feel like that's never going to happen, and i feel like i never am going to see you again :'( i hope i keep seeing...

crying for life. you were seriously the greatest thing in my life, i feel like you've died. Im looking at all the photos of us and am listening to the song you posted on your facebook just now, crying my eyes out, but i know its for the best, and i only hope the best for you for the future.

ummm...when is death finally gonna knock on my door? please and thank you

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so today i was depressed bc i missed having those night adventures with juan and michael. i feel like i've gotten so seperated from them. so i decided to drive to QC and dunkin to get some food and just pretend like i was them eating it, didn't feel the same but it made me feel better. hopefully one of this days i will be able to hang out with both michael and juan.

i miss going out at night and have adventures with michael juan and me :( so depressing.

vote for her, most commited person i know, for anything she wants

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