i've lost all the feelings i ever had. i don't even know how to feel anything anymore. everything seems dull and boring. nothing excites me. nothing interests me. im not like i used to be anymore. i've changed, and this has really changed me. i don't think anyone will even recognized me ever again. im too afraid of love now, even though i am in love right now, i just don't wanna be anymore. its really hard, even if it was love or wasn't. its just not easy to not love someone anymore. it just keeps hurting..i never wanna love again.