i feel so empty, and am so alone right now. why do i miss you so much more and more everyday. i just want to be with you forever, you were the girl of my dreams. the girl i SERIOUSLY thought i was going to end up being with for the rest of my life. you are the only one that makes me smile but now, i feel as though you are leaving forever and i will never see or talk to you again. i love you too much to let you go that easily. i can't even pretend anymore, im trying so hard. i think you noticed it today when we were at forever 21 and you asked me if i was okay, of course i had to lie and said yes, im sorry about that. im not okay, i want you back so desperate, i want to be with you forever, i want you to be the one im meant to spend the rest of my life with happily. saying all this really makes me so sad and empty, i feel meaningless. i hate crying bc i don't feel like a man when i do. i pray every night to whose ever listening to pls see that im the one for you and to pls (i know this sounds wrong) love me like i love you, bc i love you very very much, and i really cannot see my future without you, i really can't. i hope you never read this bc i know you'll get really pissed at me, and stop talking to me. i just want this feeling to go away already, i know you don't love me, and its destroying me on the inside knowing that....so why do i love somebody who doesn't love me...idk, i just do.


*cross my fingers * pls change my life and make me happy again, PLEASE! i can't handle another one of this summers/ years, i just want to be with somebody that loves me as much as i love them, and i know that somebody is you...

ugh im just talking crap...i should just shut up, and be unhappy for the rest of my life, alone..goodbye, i am angry and sad. im just..going to walk..miserable.