im sad, idk what to do. pls pls pls god or anybody out there, make tm infinity x's better than today, i just want happiness. i don't want to deal with this sadness, i just want something to make me happy. im afraid ill never find it. on another note, well it looks like your doing really good without me, and im glad that you are doing great, and obviously your great future seems more assuring. I hope one day, when we are 44 (hopefully earlier) we meet each other again, and instantly see what we've been missing in life and get married and have a family. saying that makes me feel so dumb, i bet if anybody read this they would def be like wtf is wrong with this kid. well your right, im just "wtf". i keep on feeling like i wanna bang my head on the wall hoping all my problems and emotions go away. but its useless. i think i know what to do...im leaving. im leaving everybody, im just gonna isolate myself and make new friends/ a new life. ahhhhhhhh so many thoughts!! its just frustrating me!! i wanna wake up with everything being fine! GOOD FUCKING BYE!