I have no one to talk about my problems that i like. I hate everybody. i just have my music, listening to my emo songs, bc they make me feel like they understand and keep me calm. I sound crazy. Im going to get a little book, and from now on as soon as i get it, im going to write all my personal thoughts in that book, all the pain that i suffer threw everyday in that book, only while listening to music ill do this. i figure it'll keep me calm. and when i die, everybody somebody will find that book and hopefully see what i see and understand the pain i felt, and how there is no escape to where i am at right now. hopefully my life will return to normal one day, i doubt it will. i miss my cousins and juan. wish they were back. going to be sad for the rest of the night and draw. i pray that my problems go away tm.