This actually means a lot to me

I will find you, and will keep on looking for you, I will not give up. I will find the side that you are missing ( I mean that both ways). You are worth it, I think you are worth it, more than anything, i am sure of it. You are my roadtrip. You are the Roadtrip i want to take to find whatever it is we both are finding, and i will find it. I've never been so determined. I hope its not this song im playing while writing this called Six Days At The Bottom Of The Sea by Explosions In The Sky. As cliche as this sounds, people..well not only people but everything..everything around us tells us that we must always fight for what we love and care about most. If you don't, your giving up and that makes you a failure, and right there and then you live a life of depression and pain. Well i DON'T want that. I AM going to make it to the top and make it big for myself and live the life that i want to, with you. I don't know what it is about you that makes me feel this way or think like this, but i didn't fall in love with you just bc it was the right thing to do or bc you told me you loved me. NO, i fell in love with you bc i knew when i looked at you and was with you, that you were the person i would love to spend the rest of my life with, I loved you, and i not only loved the good things about you but also the bad things, I love who YOU are truly inside. I love..you. But for now, i know me and you have to do what we have to do for ourselves. This doesn't mean at all i am going to give up on you though, i am going to find that special something to replace that emptiness in our relationship. I said i gave it my all that last time you tried to break up with me, but im wrong, that is not my all, i will push myself for..something that i love the most...