My Future

i wish you and me could last on forever, but i know that's not going to happen though. I give up to be honest, i honestly give up on trying to be with you, you have put it on my face telling me, me and you can never last. So I'm done. You'll probably meet a boy who you truly love in college in no time, im happy for you. starting right now i give up. I know im going to run into doubts and probably come back to my blog again to say how much i miss you and want you, but that's i guess normal for me. I don't know what im going to do without you, but i know its all for the best. " Go after the one's you love", im not the one you love. I get the feeling there is somebody else you love. it hurts to know, but i have to learn to not care and move on with my life. Our relationship made me a better man, thank you for that. I now know what i really want and what to look out for if i ever do date again. For whoever comes along my way, i just wanna say, all im looking for is happyness and simple that lasts. im sad right now, i have been for a while, bc i always thought i wasn't good enough for you and that you were going to leave me. i guess being alone, it won't bring me that. I remember before we were together how i REALLY wanted a relationship and i didn't care with who it was, i just thought i would be the perfect boyfriend for whoever it is. but now that its over, i don't know why i ever asked for such a thing, i don't want to be in a relationship anymore, i feel like its the worst thing i can do again. I learned my lesson. i don't think ill make anybody happy who im with so why bother going through the same thing again, i don't want to go through this again, i just don't want this problems to come back to haunt me again. Staying single seems like the best thing to do for my whole life, or at least until im old and everybody old wants to be really be with somebody for the rest of there life's haha. All this problems, i caused myself, well most of them, and it was bc i was in a relationship. So why would i ever want to work my way back to me ruining the relationship i wanted. Makes no sense. I think im going to become one of those artist that do everything alone, and are sad for the rest of there live's. seems calming i guess you can say. Maybe for once i will be right, and everything will be as i said. I don't know if im going to come back, i hope i don't though, i hope i disappear to be honest. Here's a toast to everything and my future, goodnight.